In life we face challenges that can
leave us in turmoil about which way to go next. This turmoil leads to
anxiety, depression, prescription meds and a lot of counseling sessions. Then one day, you realize you kept going, without even knowing you were
pressing your way through. You realize you never gave up, and your light begins to
shine!
Here's my story.
After a recent break up from
my fiancé, I felt defeated. I couldn't understand how something that seemed so promising could fail. We both tried with all of the effort we could muster but eventually, I had to accept the fact that the other half of my
relationship had gotten exhausted with trying to make things work, and that the
towel had been thrown in. Evidently I realized fear of failure alone would not foster a healthy relationship. It was time to move on.
The issues in my love life
accompanied another very pivotal event in my life. It was time for me to make a
decision rather or not I'd reenlist in the military, or separate. I'm
deeply unhappy and unsatisfied in the military. I’m talking the type of un-satisfaction that leads to depression and
anger. My feelings towards my career effected everyone around me. It was
not hard for me to decide on separating. The feedback I received varied
greatly. I got a couple of "congratulations...you're free!" comments,
and other comments such as "the job market is horrible, I'd never get
out of the military right now." I've never been one to
completely foster anyone else's
advice. The truth is, no one would completely understand my ill feelings
towards my current career but me! My adventure of what I'll do next is
one that I am excited to embark upon!
So that covers love and career, what
else could possibly go wrong? The family recently found out that my father has
Colon Cancer. My father, who I love and cherish with all of my heart, has
been a drug addict for the majority of his life. He has never been one to truly
take good care of himself. If left up to him, the future looks grim for
survival story, but we are a faith based family so in God we place our trust.
These three main topics are the
reasons for my newfound humbleness and
awareness to those who suffer depression and anxiety. DEPRESSION IS REAL! My
relationship with Jesus Christ is the reason why I am
able to smile today, write about my failed relationship without crying,
continue to seek a fulfilling career and continue to build on my relationship
with my father. These issues are still
ongoing in my life, but today life is good. Life is larger than what is only at
our arm’s length. Sometimes, we magnify our problems, making them
larger than our faith. This is unhealthy and detrimental to our relationship
with Jesus Christ. I do not frequent a physical church house. I do not believe
going to a designated building is a necessary religious practice, although it is great to fellowship
with likeminded others. I base my
relationship off of faith and communication with a higher power, my chosen higher
power being Jesus Christ.
